It’s time for the Inspiration Monday guest post and it’s
just what I need.
Today’s guest is a lovely lady who can be found at a sweet
blog called Sunny Toast. If you
don’t know her yet be sure to check out her blog after you read this:
When I received an invitation from Starlight to be a guest
on her blog, I jumped to the conclusion that it’s time for me to figure out
what really inspires me. What makes my engine run in the fast lane? So I
give myself a breather, walk to the park, so I can solemnly think.
As I was walking around the park near my office one day a
group of boys and girls in their late teens and early twenties caught my eye.
They were sitting next to each other, laughing and pushing each other. Some
girls were giggling some were laughing and some of them were just looking at
the rowdiness of their friends.
The scene was all too familiar to me, I felt like it was
just yesterday when I was like them. Nothing to worry about, no
responsibilities, no pressure of living up to the expectations of what I wanted
my life to be. Just hanging out with friends who at some point in the future
might become a lover, a best friend, an enemy or even a stranger.
As I passed by them, I looked back one last time and
smiled. I miss those carefree days when I wasn’t responsible for anything
except my grades! Sometimes I wish I could go back and let my parents be the
adults again to worry about the boss at work, the bills that seem to accumulate
every payday... Being an adult sometimes sucks!
I have been working for 4 and half years now and still I’m
chasing my dreams. I don’t know how I was able to make it but all I know is it
was because of my little dream to live independently, travel and enjoy life.
As I went on my own path of enjoying my life, working hard
and rewarding myself with clothes, shoes, bags, dinners in fancy restaurants,
gadgets and a few exciting vacation trips something happened in just the blink
of an eye. My parents business shut down. My two sisters and little brother
were still in college which lead to the question of supporting them
financially.
It was a hard decision for the family. Mom asked for help
and it took me months to decide. I turned off my phone, did not log-in to any
of my social network accounts or emails. It was a total blackout of
communication. I turned into a black sheep! Then one day a letter was delivered
to my table at work without a return address.
It was a letter from my mom, the first one I ever received
in my entire life. I read it and broke down and cried. It was a moment in my
life when I realized I have a family…a loving family and in that very moment, I
decided to take responsibility.
Today, they are professionals, a registered nurse and an
engineer while my little brother is about to graduate next march. It was hard
for me. I put aside all my personal dreams and took the responsibility but I
guess it was easy. I did not treat it as a responsibility but rather pure love
because that would lead to resentment.
I still have my ups and downs, I go angry and blue but I
won’t stop surviving! Just looking at what I have achieved and the love of my
family is more than enough to keep my engine running. We have to remember that
we can choose to be happy no matter what the circumstances of our lives are.
So you may be having the same doubts & fears that I
had. But you see, all you have to do is look on the bright side of things and
focus on what you want to see or happen. Nothing is impossible.
“When
you look at your life, the greatest happiness… is family happiness”
So when you’re feeling down and alone in this jaded
world…look back, there is always a family waiting for you.
