It’s time for the Inspiration Monday guest post and it’s just what I need.
Today’s guest is a lovely lady who can be found at a sweet blog called Sunny Toast. If you don’t know her yet be sure to check out her blog after you read this:
When I received an invitation from Starlight to be a guest on her blog, I jumped to the conclusion that it’s time for me to figure out what really inspires me. What makes my engine run in the fast lane? So I give myself a breather, walk to the park, so I can solemnly think.
As I was walking around the park near my office one day a group of boys and girls in their late teens and early twenties caught my eye. They were sitting next to each other, laughing and pushing each other. Some girls were giggling some were laughing and some of them were just looking at the rowdiness of their friends.
The scene was all too familiar to me, I felt like it was just yesterday when I was like them. Nothing to worry about, no responsibilities, no pressure of living up to the expectations of what I wanted my life to be. Just hanging out with friends who at some point in the future might become a lover, a best friend, an enemy or even a stranger.
As I passed by them, I looked back one last time and smiled. I miss those carefree days when I wasn’t responsible for anything except my grades! Sometimes I wish I could go back and let my parents be the adults again to worry about the boss at work, the bills that seem to accumulate every payday... Being an adult sometimes sucks!
I have been working for 4 and half years now and still I’m chasing my dreams. I don’t know how I was able to make it but all I know is it was because of my little dream to live independently, travel and enjoy life.
As I went on my own path of enjoying my life, working hard and rewarding myself with clothes, shoes, bags, dinners in fancy restaurants, gadgets and a few exciting vacation trips something happened in just the blink of an eye. My parents business shut down. My two sisters and little brother were still in college which lead to the question of supporting them financially.
It was a hard decision for the family. Mom asked for help and it took me months to decide. I turned off my phone, did not log-in to any of my social network accounts or emails. It was a total blackout of communication. I turned into a black sheep! Then one day a letter was delivered to my table at work without a return address.
It was a letter from my mom, the first one I ever received in my entire life. I read it and broke down and cried. It was a moment in my life when I realized I have a family…a loving family and in that very moment, I decided to take responsibility.
Today, they are professionals, a registered nurse and an engineer while my little brother is about to graduate next march. It was hard for me. I put aside all my personal dreams and took the responsibility but I guess it was easy. I did not treat it as a responsibility but rather pure love because that would lead to resentment.
I still have my ups and downs, I go angry and blue but I won’t stop surviving! Just looking at what I have achieved and the love of my family is more than enough to keep my engine running. We have to remember that we can choose to be happy no matter what the circumstances of our lives are.
So you may be having the same doubts & fears that I had. But you see, all you have to do is look on the bright side of things and focus on what you want to see or happen. Nothing is impossible.
“When you look at your life, the greatest happiness… is family happiness”
So when you’re feeling down and alone in this jaded world…look back, there is always a family waiting for you.